jonah falls in love

it's almost the lonely hour again, but it seems like lately, the lonely hour grows longer each day. and eventually the lonely hour will swallow the days like the loneliness swallowed me. i just can't understand how she can be so afraid that she's more comfortable in the belly of the beast. and if getting out of this whale alive means risking the pain, i'll light the match, because i carry the pain with me now and i'm still trapped in the beast, so the threat is hollow at best. unfortunately it takes two to tango and as many to escape, and she's reluctant to say the least. "leave without me, just go on ahead, i deserve to be trapped here forever." but she doesn't see that her misery is commensurate with my captivity. and i can't leave her behind, because she is my escape, and it takes two to tango, so i guess we'll just stay in the belly of the whale where it's dark and it's stale until she feels safe enough to leave.